When I wrote my previous post, I knew I was a bit daring to open up like I did. I took a risk and I was glad I made it. I had Sam read through it, and he admitted that he didn't understand that things were like they were. Perhaps I need to put things on paper more.Dawn and Steph, your comments gave me hope in that I wasn't being rash. I felt so guilty for not initially shouting hallelujahs and amens. God indeed did encourage us to bless. It assures me that I am on the right track.
There are still big questions there though. I want to get 'help', but am at a loss as to where I can find it.
Something I noticed as I walked through Coles to buy toothpaste tonight, in my heart I still pray. My heart is still after God. But I am so disturbed with what I've been through. I so want to seek the truth....
Today before Indonesian began we were talking about me being an introvert around certain people, yet when I get around Indonesian people I am extroverted banget. I felt introverted on prac because of the different personalities I was around. For some reason I feel again like an introvert, this feeling of real smallness at church. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. But I feel so small! And it's against people. It's like, I'm not as good as a christian because of who I am in that place. And that's wrong, right?
Nita gave me back my assignments from last semester. Lot's of writing and grammar mistakes.
I passed but I don't feel as pribumi as I give myself credit for. Mungkin gw bule aja... aduhhhhhhh.. gw benci darah buleku....
2 comments:
Kamu harus tetap bule karena kamu tercipta sebagai bule oleh Tuhan! Tapi jangan kuatir oleh karena darah bulemu, karena hatimu pasti 'global', bukan hati bule jelek yang hanya memikirkan dunia sendiri dan tidak pernah merasa kasihan kepada saudara-saudara kita di negara tetangga. Ngerti?
(Aku tulis resmi karena aku bicara resmi juga :P)
I'm going to comment on your other post too, so check it out.
tentu Steff
loh lucu banget!
iya saya ngerti.
makasi ya
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